A few days ago I told you that I had a rather vivid, important dream. If you're interested, here it is. If not, scroll on my friends. 🫶 This is a part of my soul.
Dark haze, Smoke curls like a dying prayer over blood-soaked sand. I'm on my knees, dust blowing into dirt devils blowing into our eyes, brown smoke, red flashes-like fire licking the edge of the world. Blood pooled in the sand, warm, dark. Was it mine? I'm not sure.
Everything aches, piercing pain, I can't stand. My tears hit the blood and it hissed-steam, or was that just my brain screaming? Then a dark flash -snap- Charlie Kirk's gone, his daughter sprinting, mouth open, soundless flashing like lightning across my soul. My chest caves in. I'm broken from the inside out. A sudden jolting memory. My mouth open in a silent scream. I broke open right there.
There's a stone temple or church ahead, old, ancient. I can't see anything but a side wall of it but I know what it is. The stone, the same pale brown as everything around us. A young man in a blue tunic, guards the stone church behind me-no name, just steel and rhythm. Swinging a broadsword beside him, fighting an unseen foe, defending the church. I'm crumpled forward, leaning on my right arm, ribs cracking without sound, body aching and bone weary.
Suddenly I see her. She steps out: Striding with long, sure steps, long reddish-brown hair, red or blue dress flashes, then she's in full armor. Not old, not young. Joan. I laugh-actually laughed out loud and said,
"You look like Joan of Arc. What's going on?" Then I broke down into tears and croaked "I'm done, I can't, I just can't" I sobbed. "I'm trying but I'm done. I can't. I'm dying."
She stepped forward without a sound, and as she came up behind me on my left, she snapped a silver bracer on my left forearm-pierced like a prayer, some ancient design I recognized pierced perfectly into the glimmering metal. I croak, "I'm done", and gold light pours onto me, from my right shoulder down to my hand. All bathed in a peaceful glorious golden light "You're not done yet" she says. "There's work to do. You're healed."
I woke shaking, confused, shocked, crying but understanding creeping in.
No seizures, I've stopped all medications but gabapentin. A week later, I'm still standing. Every time I think of this dream I shake. But for the first time in years, my head is clear, my dreams are back, my strength building. Something happened that I don't understand. In me. Of me. But I understand the message. I'm ready. I think. I know I'm not alone.
#WARRIORWOMAN!