I don’t do anything but scroll, research, and post on social media and I wonder why my life isn’t improving. No fucking energy. I take the supplements. I get sleep. My soul is tired and I can’t seem to jumpstart it. I look at the world and think, “what’s the point”? “I don’t want to play the game.” “Nothing is real”. So I sit. And scroll. And wait. Wait for something that has failed to happen since I stumbled upon this journey in October of 2018. Am I just in the “be still” phase…or am I just being lazy? Fine line between the two… I just want to care again. Have something that lights my fire. I’m so tired of this numb feeling. It’s just existing…not living. I want to live again.

Wore tennis shoes instead of barefoot ones for 3 months and my feet/ankles got ridiculously weak. Never again. Unless you're running long distance, there is no reason to wear anything but zero drop, wide toe box shoes. Especially when training

I know what I must do, but I don’t know if I have the courage to do it

Zero followers. Messaging the void. Little experiment. Simply looking to express myself and interact with others anonymously. Hopefully keep this and my personal account straight. Would be no bueno